[ This Guy ]
STATUS: !?! < * Enigmatic Jovial Freewheeler * > !?!
Name: QuaSarZ Aurora Sonic Flare BLITZ !?!
Nicknames: QuaSarZ Aurora or Alkaiser or SabinZ or Crono ( Have yr Choice ^^;; )
1st Laugh Till Now: 39
Present Job: Full-Time: Dreamin', Part-Time(Moonlighting): Conceiving and Theorizing New Ways to Conquer the Universe !?!
E-mail @ Quasarphoenix@yahoo.com.sg !?!
[ Moi' LOves ! ]
Drinks: Sarsi, Pepsi, Coke, White Grape Juice, A&W Root Beer, Yakult, Vitagen, Basically anything tat suits moi' taste !
Movies: Bruce Almighty RULESSS BIG TIME !?!, Infernal Affairs 1+3, Matrix Series, Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events, Charlie & the Chocolate Factory, ...
Songs: Anime Songs, Nice English, Chinese or Japanese Songs + GAme Music like Final Fantasy Series and ChronoTrigger !?!
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[ Moi' Detests ! ]
Drinks: Intoxiating Drinks, Horrible medicine-like drinks
Movies: Horror Movies, Silly and grotesque shows
Songs: Songs tat blame the whole world for their sufferings
!-! Backstabbers...
!-! 2 Headed Snakes...
!-! Exams + Projects...
!-! Unclean Food...
!-! Anti-DreamerZ...
[ Moi' WishList ! ]
!*! Protect Moi' Princess Angel !*!
!*! Achieve Moi' Aims & DREAMZ !*!
!*! Repay whatever favours Me owe Pple = DON'T OWE people anything !*!
!*! Outperform Moi' dumb sis and other adversaries !*!
!*! Digital Camera !
!*! Stylish Camera HandPhone !
!*! New Radio + CD Discman !
!*! Moi' Own Concept Car Or Mazda RX 8 ( Golden Yellow ) !
!*! Get Driver's License !
!*! New Laptop !
!*! New Desktop !
!*! Set Up Moi' Own Company !
!*! New Gadgets !
!*! Be with Loved ones + Friends 4eva !
!*! Win Lottery !
!*! Be VERI Rich !
[ Moi' Mood ]
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[ The Memories ]
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Me GIVE UP......
To this girl code-named aReA......:
Me can't stand it any longer, me tink that me is drifting further and further away from her......
Me tink that perhaps we can't be friends any longer......
Me should have realized this long ago, but kept believing in her, hoping that moi intuition was wrong...But it just goes to show moi intuition is usually fail-proof...Ever since the time when me sms her during the time around 2005 when there was an earthquake, and she never replied while me waited and waited, me knew that somehow things will come out this way...
She is always very headstrong and adamant, very much like stupid sis ( a shameless hypocrite ) who also likes to judge people by their appearance and manners ( though sadly, me is also the same... )...Me can still remember the time when me met her when she was working in ITP in Toscano. At that time, me was staring at the elevator and when me turned around to look at her, me found her staring at me ( cos' moi' attire was a bit quaint, me tink. ) and she averted her gaze as soon as she saw me looking at her direction and pretended to pack the handbags in the trolley. But me tink that she doesn't remember it anyway...
Aniway, after quite a long time, me get to know her and learnt that she was plagued with many troubles...1) Her family problems a) wanted her to pay for their flat about 100K?? b) depended on her for daily subsistence. c) she is an only child 2) She has health problems a) scoliosis b)breathing problems?? 3) Nursing a troubled relationship with ex-bf... 4) +++ ???
Even though she is afflicted mentally and physically, me still accepted her for what she is and didn't kinda mind when she snubbed me several times..me made sure me gave her as much breathing space as me can by not talking to her on msn frequently, sending her smses to encourage her even though me know that she will never reply and sending her e-mails as well as songs, wallpapers, interesting webbies+++, in the hope that she will feel better......But it is only after reading a poem by Queenie Ya's friend, Cheryl, that me learnt that " After a while...you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much... "
That's the problem with me..if me really believe a person is good, me will really put in effort to treat the person as nice as me can, but tis' a pity that people many people don't realize the efforts that me go to by believing in them and sending interesting webbies, songs and smses......She has jus' shown me that me has reached moi' physical and mental limits and that me is scared to be hurt anymore by others me tried to treat as friends but they don't reciprocate in kind. Besides when you tried to treat people nice, they will start to question your motives and think that you are out to exploit them. All me can say is that " Cynicism kills possibilities ! " which is one of the thing that me is terribly scared of......
For the past year with this girl, me could feel that she never treated me as a friend...even though she sometimes reciprocate in kind.
1) Me can't help but feel angry that time when me fought with stupid sis, ran away from home and tried to call her but to no avail, only to realize that she changed her handphone number and didn't even bothered to msn or sms me about it. It was also when me realized that she probably never recieved the weekly smses me send to her and was not bothered about it !!!
2) Me asked her simple things like teaching me how to play warcraft when she is free and she just acts coy and said that she was just a novice......
3) She never asks if me is okey, it was always me taking the first step asking after her well-being, taking pains to make sure she feels relax and cheerful after bouts of unhappiness......
4) She doesn't tag moi tagboard even though me used to tag her tagboard often enough even for the trivial posts she made..me started to notice that she also starts to ignore moi tags as time passes..perhaps she really starts to find me irksome, that's why sometimes me is scared of moiself, me can sometimes go overboard ! When that time me read from her blog that she could probably be afflicted with cancer, me foolishly went to message people me felt are her close friends and hopefully hope that me could help her as much as me can, but she will never know it anyway. She doesn't even bother to read moi blog, as much as her other friends. When me knew that she had to pay for her flat for her family, the first thought that rang in moi head was if me should sell " my " flat and give her the money, okey, me know its ridiculous but it's just that even though me admit that me is quite fond of her, a person who me really treat as friend would definitely deserve the same " luxurious " treatment from me......
5) She feels that she already has a cliche' of good friends and feels no need to go all out to socialise further, even though she doesn't mind making more friends. That's probably why she doesn't bother to care about me, whom she feels that is jus' a pipsqueak.
6) She looks down on SIM ( Singapore Institute of Management ), and threw me a disgusted look, saying that the degree is not recognised even though moi repeated attempts to say that it's not true. Me don't know what you think but me know that though it's not as good as NUS, NTU or SMU which she badly wants to enter, but everyone also wants to do their best and its simply not right to disparage them just like that. Of course deep down, me still concede that its not as good as the other universities in terms of prestige buy hey, let's not be so cynical of others, okey..pretty plsss......
7)" Don't make someone a priority who only makes you an option " These were the words that she taught to me. And now, me can't help but feel that she obviously treated me as an option. She is the kind of girl that who is under extreme stress and panic would be easily swayed by circumstances. Not to mean she is weak-willed but let me just give you a scenario. Imagine you are in the midst of an exam and under extreme stress and panic, and your best friend who you trusted greatly, tells you the answer to the 1st multiple choice question is A, and you naturally choose WITHOUT even looking at the other options. And for the rest of the multiple choices, you just follow your Best Friend's cue, without realizing that you are sinking deeper and deeper...
Me once consulted a 2006 horoscope book by Lilian Too, that said that she and me was uncompatible because she being a rat was insensitive and selfish while me, usually faithful and loyal, is put off by her attitude, viewing her as self-centred and not worth loving. The rat discovers that moi initial warm nature does not last and starts to question moi motives. This non-communication causes a great deal of barking and shouting and instead of getting better over the years, any match between the two just gets a lot worse.
The rat's insecure nature gets in the way of there being any genuine communication and me simply gives up trying to make things work and instead would ( and should ) look elsewhere for love, encouragement and support. This match can end up sad and loveless, as each one retreats into his/her shell. The chill between the two is unlikely to thaw.
Another reason why me find that she will never like me is because she already has a pre-conceived notion that me is insecure and needs lotsa reassurance..but unfortunately, she doesn't know that there's another side of me that is still able to balance out these negative feelings...
Me know that me can never treat her the same after today when she just ignored me yesterday when me tried to ask if me can join her for lunch and if not, dinner ( okey..me know it sounds childish but this is because me already used to her patronising ways but today me is very upset that me feel me can't stand it anymore )...Me wont't speak ill of her and will continue reading her blog religiously everyday and will keep sending her weekly smses till the day me is tired of it or she doesn't want it but me know that me will really not be able to treat her a good a friend as ever before, sadly......
Me started to have some fond memories of the time when she knocked off from Toscano, we went to buy a hairclip for her and thereafter went to have dinner at cineleisure. During that time, we seldom have moments of uncomfortable silence between us and were instead rattling all the way. But it seems that she doesn't even treat me as a friend even though the efforts me painstakingly tried to do for her......
ME GIVE UP......
BY: QuaSarZ Aurora Forlorn Dare-Devil !?!
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@ 3/10/2006 02:01:00 AM
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